My mum died when I was just nine. I had always been into computer games casually up until then, as any child of the 80' s was. But when she died I had a massive void in my life, it felt cavernous like nothing could fill it.
My dad had always worked abroad, but was back to look after us and he really didn' t have a clue where to start! He went on to make some monumental mistakes, but started strongly by buying me a Jap MD on import and a Game Gear shortly after!
When I got a game I played it thorugh to completion, then i' d do it again, and again, trying to get the total time down each time, by the time sonic came out I' d complete that a few times a day just to stay in shape.
For me it was a massive slice of escapism. Even bad games were great then, immersive and had me taking on the roles of charecters I played in game when we were out playing with mates building gang huts etc.. In fact I remember playing crack down so much (which was a bad gauntlet style top down sci fi shooter) so much that me and my little bro were convinced that' s what we wanted to do when we grew up.
Anyways, throughout the time when I grew up games were always there to take me away from when times were bad. But they wernt just escapism, they became something more, something I could see every creative effort of vast teams of developers crammed into one product for me to enjoy.
I have all the other consoles too, but SEGA have me a rich vein of consoles which to this day are still really special and have vast amounts of sentimental meaning to me. I can remember where I was and what I was doing with my life according to what big games I completed and where, rather than by thinking for other achievements like school!
I' m not saying I' m not well rounded these days, in fact I had a gaming drought Mid PS2 /Xbox / PC last gen for a couple of years where I disconnected from gaming almost completely just dabbling every now and then, but that will never take away from me the true respect I have for games, and how special they felt when I really needed distracting as a kid!
More recently some very bad things happened to someone I loved, and I have been with them every step of the way. I thought I had been through the worst of things and although I cant say I used gaming to help those who were hurting - in the wee hours when I personally couldnt sleep, or in the short respite I had between making people ok and healing them emotionally I found solice in the DC with games like Shenmue, Sonic Adventure and Various RPG' s.
Despite sometimes being down (not depressed, jut a bit sad perhaps!) the games still made me elated and sd I got older I began to think that gaming, or ' playing' as a form of interaction fills a fundamental gap in our psyche, giving us time to switch off and interact without the worries of day to day life and instead of it being an unfulfilling task - leaving us stimulated and more mentally supple to deal with the stresses that life will throw at us in the same way that sports and hobbies can also do..
But other activities can not transport you to out of this world places fueled by human emotion, imagination & interaction.
I have done various games related creative jobs and moved between them and jobs with IT. I now find myself teaching about games on a daily basis and am looking again to teh future to see where this all may lead. It is a lot of hard work, and I really dont get as much time to play as I' d like, so in turn I' m not as good as I used to be, but there was a time not too long ago when I was untouchable at almost any game. I' d like to think that time will come again - but until then I have resigned myself to the recreation area of XBL waiting for the right time (and space) to achieve true greatness at something again!