As most of you have noticed by now, I have most certainly not been on the ball in the past 2 weeks or so. Sporradic f**k-ups here & there. Freaking out on the occasional forum member. Misquoted stuff. Plain ' ol wrong information. Y' know, Gamespot forums material.

Life' s been giving me a hard time as of late. I' m trying to keep up with massive hours at work, juggling the mounting list of things to get done at home, have had next to no time for games, dealing with (counts off on fingers) 4 family emergencies, having to crack to books again for my classes, all while trying to squeeze in a spare moment or so with a new girlfriend.

Needless to say, I' ve been a nervous f***ing wreck, and it shows.

I got up this morning, hopped on Kikizo for a sec, and then headed off to work. I work for a local lawncare service, and make enough money to get by doing it. I never really liked working outside, but I had a job, which is more than what could be said for 18% of the people around me.

I' m not sure exactly what made me do it. Maybe it was the mounting stress. maybe it was my growing hate for my job. Hell, maybe it was a random outburst of emotion that I' m going to sorely regret tomorrow, but either way, what' s done is done.

I walked up to my boss, handed him my ring of keys to the truck, the storage trailer and the mower, gave him my work jacket & hat. Said " I quit" , and walked out the door.

I' ve been thinking about it for the past hour or so, just trying to let it all sink in, and I' ve come to the conclusion that it' ll be a good thing for me in the long run. On the one hand, I' ll have significantly less money to spend on games, movies & other stuff that I really enjoy. However, in the end, I value my mental composure & my ability to present my thoughts and opinions more than I do any amount of money lost.

I mean, there' s places looking for work around here, even in the economic trouble my area is in. If that means going back to unloading pallets in a grocery store freezer, or changing oil at the local Jiffy-Lube, or for that matter, making quesadillas at the local Taco Bell, I' ll be strangely fine with that.

I' ve been long overdue for a chance to de-stress my life my life, and this was the first opportunity I saw to do that.

I' m only telling you all this (relative strangers to me) because I figure I owe you guys an explanation as to what the hell has been going on in the past couple weeks or so. I won' t be posting with the regularity I have in the last couple months. I think I' m going to just take a step back from most everything & re-evaluate where I am in life. This isn' t a goodbye letter or anything. I' ll still be on Kikizo a couple of times a week, mainly to upload reviews & impressions of the latest and not-necessarily greatest games on the market, maybe post a response or two in the stuff I really care about, but I think it' s going to be better for me if I just take life easy for a bit.

Those of you who know my email are welcome to give me a holler there, I' ll still check that daily. Those of you who don' t should ask the ones who do, take 3 guesses, (I trust those people who do to not to give it to those who are going to sign me up for gay porn sites) If you can' t figure it out though, you probably don' t deserve to know anyway. And if I can, I' ll be playing the Call of Duty:MW beta as much as humanly possible, so you' ll probably see me there on Xbox Live if you' re up for a game. Well... methinks it' s time for me to head off & do nothing for a couple of hours. Long overdue for that.

Keep kicking ass!

-Eddie

Take it easy, Eddie. I hope things settle down for you and take a turn for the better!

That' s too bad to hear. You seem to be a really decent guy, the last kind of person I' d wish bad news for. I guess the world isn' t very fair as usuall. And you' re one of the most valuable members on the forum. Less posts from you will only be bad for Kikizo. But of course, your own health comes first so don' t think about that.
I hope your life will start going the right way soon again, as it usually does after some bad times.
Your posts haven' t been as bad as you make them out to be. They were just a little sloppy compared to your normal standard, but still higher than most other members.

I know what you mean, sometimes life' s a bitch


Be at ease!

C' est la vie.

I have to say lately things haven' t been going my way either. But hey, in the grand scheme of things, what does it matter anyways?

At least the shit hasn' t hit the fan the way it has for this cop.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBrnBmUmVzI&mode=related&search=

One of America' s most wanted, the cop let him go and he' s still on the run.

I hope that cheers you up a bit, the misery of others always makes me feel better after a shitty day.

Eddie you just made it hard for yourself, too avoid any awkard confrontataion and just stop going to work, its only a crappy summer job so they wont bother ringing you.

This summer is kind of sucky for us too, only last saturday I was in a small car crash, nothing major but still scary, my dad had his leg trampled over, non stop rain which makes going outside a chore esp when your labouring laying blocks for a month or so and have to work in it everyday, needless to say I dont do that anymore.

oh yeah the worest part, and I still dont have a hdtv. Work is hard to find around here, and whatever you get its usally the work nobody wants and pays shit. I just have enough to get by college this year [with the goverments grant] but Gaming and the like is going to be a problem with no money

If anybody knows of any way to earn some cash easily, you know. Dont tell me.

Dude, it' s going to be a shame not having you posting as much anymore. You made some pretty insightful posts. I hope you get everything sorted.

I' ll look out for you in the future.

I know a way, Silent. Ask the je...erm I mean merchant banker of the forum

And best wishes Eddie.

ORIGINAL: immortaldanmx

I know a way, Silent. Ask the je...erm I mean merchant banker of the forum

Prostitution, smuggling, drugs, small armed robbery and extortion are my current faves. It' s either those or " real" work. If you were Jewish you' d be automatically rich, ..we run the world y' know...

Jew gold!

And diamonds and Rubles and gold bullion and priceless artwork and silver and rubies and AT&T shares and nifty hats and a bunch of those cool Torah reading pointy fingers....

Oh...

Sorry...



Apart from my Xbox, I' ve been off of the internet save for about 10 minutes, and it' s not too bad to be honest. I' ve been spending a lot more time outside, or working out or conversing with human beings in person, which is a refreshing change (no offense guys, you all rock).

Thankfully, my local library kicked their old decrepit DSL service and are now running cable, so I won' t have a vicious web-stutter like last time.